Despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in a cage

Sat, 21 May 2005 13:06:17 GMT

Damn, when was the last time I did this shit?

Well, I might as well talk about the Against Me! show I went to last night. Since I knew the guys in the band The Company Anthem, I was able to get in for free and I got to see Against Me! during their sound checks. The last time Against Me! came to Maine was about 2years ago in this little dance studio where we had to take our shoes off. At the start of the show I was just helping my sister with the merchandise then I was able to stand right next to the stage where I got to see most of the bands. Against Me! were pretty awesome. Being right next to the stage gave me the opportunity to step on the stage and sing into James' microphone. There was a hell of a lot of people there for a punk show. only 1/8 of the crowd would have made up the crowd at the last show. I don't even think The Unseen had this many people at their show last summer. I can still barely hear anything, but I'm used to it.

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 01:03:44 GMT

RIP Dimebag Darrell

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 20:29:18 GMT

Even though I look like it, i'm not a druggie. On that last entry I was just joking around you wierd little kids. I haven't been high for months now.

(If I may borrow a phrase from Craig)

Savvy?

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 22:54:23 GMT

So at school I run into people and they say they haven't seen me around anymore. The reason for that is that I have been coming to school late because I am a lazy bastard. I'm not trying to avoid anyone. Things have been wierd, but that ain't a big deal. I'm just trying to say I'm still alive.

You know what else is alive.......Ninja Cow. It doesnt have anything on it yet but that should change, just give me a little time......assholes..and its now at geocities.com/ninjacow and dont expect to be very entertained because I just got working on it today.

And be prepared for Savvy!!!

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 19:31:07 GMT

Ansell is back!!!!

Ok down to business.

The band is sans one guitar player right now. So obviously we are gonna need a new one. So if any of you kids can play guitar or someone who does, has at least 1 year of experience, and is into rock and roll, and especially are interested in the band then you can try out to join either at Daddy's Junky Music in Westbrook-Tues. Oct. 19th 6:00 P.M. OR The Band Room-Wends. Oct. 20th 2:30 P.M.
And above all else you must know the chords.

New episodes of Dude coming in a little while hopefully, or as soon as I get the time to make them. Oiiiii. Completely forgot about what happened in the old comics, the new ones are kinda like redos. yea.

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 18:42:50 GMT

I don't know what to do.

I want to tell her how I feel about her very badly, but she seems to not want anything to do with it.

And I don't want to be another burden.

Lately she seems to not want to talk to me, or even act like she likes me as a friend anymore. But I'm not expecting for her to have the same feelings for me. I just want to get this off my chest and stop having to lock it away inside because if I don't then it will just tear me up inside.

I don't want to be in love.

I don't know what to do.

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 19:16:22 GMT

It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling

hmmmm, I like that song.

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 23:40:37 GMT

As I look around, love seems to be a large subject right now. It can lead to such happiness but then can quickly turn into a burden on ones soul more larger than anyone can imagine. after having like 5-6 girlfriends in the past 3 years, maybe its time for myself to go on independently for some time. I'm still young. going out with someone can also really mess up a friendship. As for now I would like to hold on to a certain friendship. Me and heather were friends, but now we barely even talk anymore. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm not looking for love now. I should focus on more important things. Like school. And especially my band. And of coarse to keep on to the friends I have. I have also decided to try and be a bit more sociable, if thats possible.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 20:31:32 GMT

I feel sick and confused.

I don't know why.

Maybe my emotions are trying to tell me something.

Or probably just messing around with me.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 19:10:27 GMT

Rest in Peace, Johnny Ramone.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 18:49:36 GMT

Im gonna be in Maryland for the next five days so I'll take the time to say bye to everyone.

Went to fast, I'm out of luck and I don't even give a fuck

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 19:59:25 GMT

So today I learned that I still suck at math.

and thats all for today.

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 01:26:43 GMT

Kids, don't drink juice made out of bull testicles. It does things to you that are disturbing.

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 21:50:09 GMT

The second day of school has past and I think I'm quite used to it. Believe it or not this school year doesnt seem to bad. Most of my classes are pretty cool and I have lab chemistry with craig. Or maybe its just that I'm in a pretty good motherfucking mood right now.

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 19:21:15 GMT

I cant believe this house only has 1 Led Zeppelin album.

Nothings gonna put me out

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 18:27:18 GMT

Its strange to know that tommorrow I'll have to get up and go to school. Summer vacation just doesnt feel to be over yet. I would think that it would last a little bit longer. Once again time has past before any of us could barely tell. I guess this summer wasnt so bad. I had some real good times. Going surfing with Tasha, Watching summerslam with Craig and Casey, Getting the band together for our first practice. And they were bad times. But no one wants to hear about the bad times. They dont even matter anymore. What matters is what I have in front of me. Im already a junior, I only have 2 years of school left until im out and gone to college it something. Im still not sure about college, theres still things I have to do I guess to worry bout it for now. I don't know what will go on as I'm a senior, but I'm sure everything will be alright. It will great to see all of my friends again.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 17:56:40 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLAINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let all your fucking wishes come true man

I would have posted this sooner but when I woke up today it was already 1 PM.

Tomorrows my last day of summer vacation, I should be allowed to sleep in as much as I want.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 05:49:14 GMT

Today was a good day. Tasha came over and we hung out and talked and stuff. Hope she had a good time and that she feels better.

Earlier tonight I got a headache, but thats long past gone. But now Its hard for me to get some sleep. Its already 2 in morning (almost). I'll be sleeping in in the morning.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 05:33:07 GMT

Awwwwww, theres no one here to talk to. Its only 1:30 in the morning.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 16:02:45 GMT

So thanks to Trina, my Casey is stoned icon is less crappy and more cooler.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 04:37:13 GMT

Hmmmmmmm........need ideas

for comic books

and web designing

amd other stuff

hmmmmmm. New icon, looks kinda crappy.

Blow up the outside world

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 01:37:45 GMT

I am currently reconstrucing my web-site and can now be viewed at www.geocities.com/ninjacow. This site will be home to mostly my comics that I make during my free time.

And speaking of comics, I have decided to give Dude a complete do over. Now it will still have the same plot and charcters only it will start off differently than the original version. It will start off with 3 of the main characters off on a quest for a treasure unaware that its a school day at the boarding school that they live in. So thats all I got.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 02:21:47 GMT

And the lesson is that Robert Smith kicks ass!

Can you tell me what you got me hanging from?

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 17:20:51 GMT

I had this wierd dream last night. I dreamed that it was my birthday or something and all of you had thown me a party. But during the party everyone was ignoring me. Everyone acted like I didn't exist or even care. Quite strange

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 16:33:18 GMT

hmmph